It's Season Greetings Again

Seems like every year I'll be having a post written about Christmas. I wonder is it a hunch feeling that guides me to do so, or I just feel like writing about it.

Anyhow, I had too much sad songs lately, and I'm getting very blue and emo every single day. Gaming doesnt ease the pain, and I just cant take it away from me. I hate myself for that, and I hate myself attached on things I'm not supposed to be clinging on. Eventually I hope I'll find a way to solve that...

#Yes... the sad songs makes me blue. And I'm wearing a blue shirt too.#

And yeah, Christmas is near, and it is going to be something quite memorable to me this year. I'm looking forward to the vacation end of the month, hope it can erase the blue that I got inside of me. Will update on the vacation trip once I'm back.

For the closure, Merry Early Christmas everyone ! *Happy early vacation to myself too !*

#Wanna do something disasterrific in the lab together ?#

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Sometimes ...

Sometimes there are just things that you cant speak out of your mind to that someone,

no matter how close, or how good that person is.

Sometimes it might be a silly question,

a small doubt, a heart feeling, 

or just something you thought you ought to share with them,

but you never know:

Do they really care about what you did and the things you said to them ?

Then you started to think a lot, worry a lot:

How deep is our relationship actually ?

Am I a bothersome person to them ?

Am I really worried too much ?

Sometimes...

I think it is good to keep things to yourself,

because sharing it out might hurt someone,

or ruin a very good relationship with someone you hold dear.

People are all selfish, lusty, greed, ego and all the bad things you could think of.

No one would like to lend a listening ear to you.

No one would bother to worry about you.

No one would stay by your side forever.

No one would be your BFF,

at least not Forever.

But then,

no matter how much hope I've lost,

I still have faith that there are good people out there,

that would help me, guide me,

be patient with me,

and forgive me for the mistakes that I've done.

Sometimes I really wish that life would be more simpler,

people being honest with each other,

and arguments makes two person closer instead of further.

I dont know what am I writing here...

perhaps I just wanted to update the blog,

and express the feelings that has been kept inside of me for so long.

Hope to come back soon with interesting stories instead of this.

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十月

很突然的已经十月了

这份工作也快做满一年咯

时间真的过得很快 hor？

其实自己也没有什么好在这里更新的

能说的就是上个星期跑去剪了头毛

感觉上还蛮 OK 一下的

好久没有放上自己的照片了

现在就来一张自恋照吧

#感觉上自己隐隐约约也是有酒窝的哦！*自恋*#

再来就想说说自己学游泳的程度啦

发现自己其实不怎么会蛙式

反而自由式还比较 OK

记得以前同班同学教我的时候也是教自由式的

但是自己不会换气

所以每次游到一半就断气了

希望下次可以自己学会换气吧

上个周末经过 Daiso

发现买很多万圣节的装饰品

自己也迎节买了个小南瓜

放在研究室的门口

#今天被同事说那个南瓜好像我... 这是什么意思啊？到底是好是坏...#

没什么东西好说了

下次再回来跟大家分享分享有趣的东西吧

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往事只能回味... 吗？

上星期六跑去了一个在网上刚认识不久的朋友的家

大家互相认识

玩很刺激的 Resident Evil 6

在家看电影

煮意大利面

和在泳池游泳

认识了他给我一个很奇怪的感觉：

我发觉我的人生好像没有什么目标似的... 

自己的 degree 成绩不算太好

第一份工作有点搞笑

现在第二份工作也很悲哀

目前没有那么幸运有人给车子用

也没有人帮我供车

目前薪水可怜得很

更加不需要说自己有本事供房子
即使要换工作也不是那么快吧...

前几天看过一篇文章的标题

说什么现代年轻人多数都不清楚自己的未来该怎么走

我觉得...

我自己也是一份子啊！

当然

自己不是没有想过找外快

但是除了直销/类似直销的工作

就没有其他的选择了吗？

***

在泳池游泳的时候

自己回想起了还在 Foundation 的时候

大家一起在泳池里玩耍

大家一起玩水

一起用心地教我怎样浮起来

怎样摆动身体

怎样游泳

也很突然自己回想起在金宝的日子

得空就拿起笛子练习

得空就找动漫找电影下载看

得空就去打羽毛球

得空就去做 part-time

得空就打打电动

还有一个同室在房间里面

和他买回来可爱的小仓鼠

那些还在无忧无虑的生活

是否在还没得到一份安稳的工作

还没得到一份稳定的收入

还没得到自己的房子车子之前

都无法得到呢？

往事就只能回味

回味了就要回到现实了

自己的人生目前虽然还没有什么目标

但是我希望会以自己的实力

先给自己买一辆车

大学生哦
还真的以为大学毕业后生活会很好
其实
也不就一样吗？

***

要跨出这个箱子见人

真不简单啊

看到朋友和他另一半在亲密

其实自己也忘了

自己也是幸福的人啊

大家加油吧~

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